You Could...

After you left I asked you to look back
& see that maybe, just maybe...
you over-reacted
You actually said yes
but that there was "nothing you could do about it"

Well here's what you "could have done"...

You could have apologized
after you realized
that we could have worked it out

You could have looked me in the eyes
You could have admitted the truth
the truth that you let someone come between us

You could have been honest
You could have meant what you always said
You could have taken the time to process your thoughts

You could have loved me the way that I deserve
You could have seen the depths of my love
You could have treasured every moment
You could have made time
You could have chased your dreams, with me
You could have been open
You could have been fearless
You could have been a leader
You could have committed
You could have embraced change

You could have stayed

Am I going to hear from you in the future like I have the others?
In 6 weeks are you going to call?
In 3 months are you going to write?
In 15 years are you going to try to make it right?

You could... 

Feels

I hate when I feel this way...
When I feel like calling
When I feel like crying
When I feel like I'm dying 
from a broken heart

No. Hell no. Not tomorrow, not today
My heart still works...
No one broke shit!
This is just part of the ride
I'll only be here for a bit
I'll get over you
I'll get over it

How I Love You

I love you.

You're strong, capable, & smart.

I accept you.

Your scars make you who you are.

A shining star.

In my eyes... you are perfect.

Your heart so generous.

Your laugh contagious.

How I love you... How I love you.

Moments

I've experienced the most profound
the most beautiful
the most meaningful
moments
but I cannot repeat them
Not that I don't want to... I do!
They're just un-explainable

I can feel them
racing through my veins
awakening every cell
in my entire being
but I cannot share them
Not that I don't want to... I do!
they're just in-express-able 

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it was so cold 
& empty
when you left me
with a frozen heart
with a broken heart
with a confused mind
& too much time
to reflect
i felt like a reject
like i didn't matter
like you never cared
& wishing my heart could have been spared

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we were lost in translation

with opposite definitions

of dedication

with opposite means of transportation

to get to new destinations

so we disappeared into oblivion, forever lost

at least to each other

& it still hurts to remember

to face the facts

that you've never looked back

with regret 

that I'm gone

& that's wrong

at least to me